Close to My Heart — Real Stories from Real Mothers
Motherhood comes with moments no one prepares you for — the quiet ones, the heavy ones, the deeply beautiful ones.
We created this space for real stories — unfiltered, raw, and full of truth. Because every journey looks different. Some find ease, others face struggle, and many live somewhere in between.
These words are from women who nurtured, who tried, who paused, who began again.
Each story is a reminder that you are never alone, and that every form of nurture — whether through milk, touch, patience, or love — is valid.
..........
Below, you’ll find stories shared by women from our community — in their own words.
Some are short, some are emotional, all are real.
We hope these reflections bring comfort, courage, and connection.
..........
What did you struggle with most?
"I had a psychological issue for the first month; I was too worried my daughter wouldn’t be getting enough milk, so I used to exclusively pump, which was demanding and super painful. And in the end turns out I was overfeeding my baby and causing her stomach problems." - Leilla Shaaban
"Pain, Supply issues, Exhaustion, Pressure" - Mother of a 7 month-old
"Pain, Baby had jaundice so she had low energy at first" - Farida El Gueretly
"Pain, Supply issues, Lip & tongue tie! Extreme over supply - continuous engorgement & literal non-stop of pouring out of milk for the first 5.5 months." - Kiki H Z
"Pressure, And latching issues" - Mother of a 3.5 year-old
What surprised you most about Breastfeeding?
"I was told by my doctor in London that I had 98% chance of never being able to breastfeed because of a surgery I had 10 years before that, and the moment my first son was born the midwife helped me express milk and THERE WAS colostrum coming out and I started crying when it happened. So in short what surprised me was it actually happening!" - Salma Nassar
"That it's not as easy as it looks" - Mother of a 7 year-old
"I couldn’t do it at all" - Mother of a 1 year-old
"The pain and struggle of being an under supplier who doesnt want to give my baby formula" - Mother of a 7 month-old
"How Natural it feels! When you See it in public you might feel Strange, or akeed its painful or that it will be difficult but once you start it suddenly feels so natural!" - Mother of a 2.5 year-old
"The bond between the mom and her baby" - Caroline Maged
"How painful it was. I honestly didn’t expect it to be this painful" - Mother of a 3 year-old
"Hw hurtful it was with my first.. learnt how to control it with my second was way better but very hectic" - Mother of a 9 month-old
"Milk supply is different in each breast" - Mother of a 2 week-old baby
"The pain, the uncertainty of how much your child is actually getting. Are they full, are they hungry? That breastfeeding is not just about you and your breast but also about how ready the baby is to breastfeed. My daughter had jaundice for the first two weeks so i had to feed her my breastmilk with an injection because she didnt have the energy to feed on her own. The uncontrollable shaking when the milk came in" - Farida El Gueretly
"Milk drops when baby cries" - Mother of a 2 month-old
"The pain, and the physical, cognitive, & emotional commitment." - Kiki H Z
"All the layers of breastfeeding and how many complexities exist: latch, positions, milk transfer, engorgement, supply, pumping, timings, gas, pain, baby's weight gain, etc etc" - Mother of a 1 year-old
"The level of commitment and attachment." - Mother of a 3.5 year-old
"My baby and she learned to latch herself." - Mother of a 3 month-old
"That it’s not straightforward as I thought it would be." - Mother of a 2 month-old
"The amount of breastfeeding and the time it took out of my day and effort from my body" - Mother of a 15 month-old
What was your experience like during the first weeks of Breastfeeding?
"December 31st 2021, Adam was 5 days old: "During one of your feedings at night I looked up and scheduled an appointment with a lactation consultant for today. Although I met with three while we were still in the hospital no one could address the TREMENDOUS paint that I am in and that I am constantly pouring out milk. I know this is my first time, but I know that something isn't right. Everyone said that things would get better, but they are actually getting a lot worse and I am beginning to dread feedings because the pain scares me. I will address it because I need to enjoy feeding you again." During this time I prayed to make it a month, but a few days later when Adam's lip and tongue tie was revised, I looked forward to make it until he was 2 years old." - Kiki H Z
"Drained!!" - Mother of a 7 & 4 year-old
"The first weeks of breastfeeding were, without doubt, the hardest phase. Those initial four weeks felt like an endurance test, the pain was extreme, my nipples were cracked and bleeding, and every latch (which was poor at first) made me scream and cry. It’s the stage when many mothers choose to stop and switch to formula, simply because the pain feels unbearable. People around me could see I was struggling, and some even encouraged me to give up, saying things like, “Many kids grow up perfectly fine on formula,” or “You can’t care for your baby if you don’t care for yourself.” Those words, although well-intentioned, didn’t help at all.
What got me through was knowing, from my experience with my first child, that the pain does pass. I held on to the belief that this was the best decision for my baby’s long-term health, and that once the pain faded, I’d love breastfeeding for the magical bond it creates. That connection felt like my own “Avatar tail latch”, a deep, natural bond unlike anything else. What I really needed at that time was people around me reminding me of that beauty, that it gets better, that it’s worth it. Unfortunately, I didn’t have that, but I wish every new mom did." - Heba Nafel
"It was physically painful and draining. I also felt sticky and in need of a shower multiple times a day. Emotionally i was fine, but it was a bit stressful not knowing whether the baby had enough to eat. I think the second time around will be less stressful because now at least I know that my body can actually sustain a human completely through breastmilk for the first year of life." - Farida El Gueretly
"Very painful but loved the connection with my baby" - Mother of a 2 year-old
"Torn between the pain and the feeling of having to provide life for the baby" - Mother of a 13 month-old
"Physically tired and in pain.. emotionally nothing except i have to give this baby food" - Mother of a 9 month-old
"Stressed, pressured, felt like I was letting my baby down. I felt like I’m failing as a mother. I was exhausted and felt helpless. I didn’t think that there was anyone like me, although I had a close friend that had given birth at the same time as I did. But I couldn’t help it. Sleepless, anxious, helpless." - Mother of a 3 year-old
"Hard work and painful yet beautiful connection" - Mother of a 3 month-old
"All over the place and miserable" - Mother of a 1 year-old
"Overwhelmed beyond words and also so nervous for being the only source of feeding to my baby" - Caroline Maged
"Drained and so confused " - Mother of a 3.5 year-old
"Emotionally I would say it felt like a rollercoaster you weren’t sure if you are doing it right but you felt this strange bond as well. Physically I would say was okay." - Mother of a 2.5 year-old
"Consumed by anxiety" - Mother of a 1.3 year-old
"I was so happy I could breastfeed" - Salma Nassar
"Exhausted, sometimes nervous" - Mother of a 7 year-old
"Frustrated" - Mother of a 1 year-old
"Anxious and stressed that she wasn’t getting enough." - Leilla Shaaban
"Emotionally - overwhelmed, stressed, hormonal. Physically - drained and exhausted" - Mother of a 1 year-old
"I felt so emotionally drained, I don’t remember an “instant bond” with my baby, I remember feeling like I physically needed space actually. I was also physically recovering from a vaginal birth which made sitting down uncomfortable, so breastfeeding didn’t help much." - Mother of a 15 month-old
What did you learn about yourself from this experience?
"I love being a parent more than I ever imagined I would - it's reliving a very joyful and loving childhood all over again through my children and it's heaven." - Kiki H Z
"Resilience, how to go through discomfort" - Mother of a 7 & 4 year-old
"That I was more judgmental about supplementing and all “unnatural” birth things than I thought, and I’m grateful that my experience has humbled me and made me less of a control freak and more focused on prioritising me and my baby’s wellbeing." - Mother of a 2 month-old
"That I am strong and determined, and that i will always put my kids and what’s best for them first." - Heba Nafel
"Nothing has a time limit. Nothing will get “better” after x amount of years. There should be no expectations about how something should be or look like. It’s a process for each person and we all need different tools to deal with it. Some people will need the latest gadgets to weather the tough days and another person just needs an hour with their therapist to talk it out. I also learned to let go completely. And to let people in to help me, even if it’s not exactly the way i wanted or envisioned. Im used to flying solo but theres no flying solo when it comes to caring for and raising a human." - Farida El Gueretly
"That I am a strong human being and a selfless one when it comes to providing life to my baby girl." - Mother of a 13 year-old
"How strong women are, and how underestimated we are by no-one but us." - Mother of a 3 year-old
"That I am a beast and tried my best always" - Mother of a 1 year-old
"That I have internal powers and persistence" - Caroline Maged
"That I had a lot more patience than I thought. I can maintain and continue a lot of things and have patience I never thought I would have." - Mother of a 2.5 year-old
"That I can slow down, what was I even chasing?!" - Mother of a 1.3 year-old
"Patience and love in physical form." - Salma Nassar
"I get easily distracted. And also that I developed a lot of respect for all mothers." - Mother of a 2 month-old
"I have no tolerance" - Mother of a 3 year-old
"I'm stronger than I thought, and the amount of love that I can share is huge" - Mother of a 7 year-old
"That I was able to let go and not be to harsh on myself" - Mother of a 1 year-old
"That I’m too much of a perfectionist and a planner, and that doesn’t work when it comes to babies" - Leilla Shaaban
"That I'm a fighter and I push through things to the maximum no matter how difficult it is" - Mother of a 3.5 year-old
"Women are from another world, I gained so much more respect for my mother, aunts, grandmas, mama-friends. It was like I joined an unspoken sisterhood/club." - Mother of a 15 month-old
From Mama-to-Mama. One thing you wish someone told you about Breastfeeding:
"That 90% of the time babies actually get their needs of breastmilk through breastfeeding and that I shouldn’t worry about her being full or not. I would tell them the guilt never fades, even when you’re there with them, you’re still thinking what more can I do/give. I would tell them believe in yourself, that you’re doing your best and being the best mother you can be. And that it all passes and once they smile at you, everything will feel worth it" - Leilla Shaaban
"Don’t stress it’s okay if it doesn’t workout formula is as good" - Mother of a 1 year-old
"Don’t stress about it" - Mother of a 3 year-old
"It requires patience and not everything they say is true" - Mother of a 7 month-old
"You don’t have to stretch it that far, I breastfed my first till I was pregnant with my second. And it took a toll on my body. Also, take your vitamins! There is no one way to do it. There is no one way to nurture." - Salma Nassar
"That it’s really not a given and that fed is best" - Mother of a 1.3 year-old
"how lonely it will sometimes feel but how beautiful these moments of connection are and that you will cherish them later on. You could be in a Family gathering or other and have to retreat alone into a room because Not all people in Egypt are understanding to breastfeeding in public unfortunately and sometimes you are just more comfortable being alone and you might feel very lonely in those moments and despise them and that’s okay. But also cherish them it’s a unique connection you will carry in your heart I feel" - Mother of a 2.5 year-old
"To be prepared emotionally that it will not work from the first time" - Caroline Maged
"Moisturizing the nipple to prepare it" - Mother of a 1 year-old
"Nothing because I don’t think anything would’ve mattered with all those emotions rushing through your mind and heart. But I’m so glad I went through everything. It was special" - Mother of a 3 year-old
"Put cream on nipples during pregnancy" - Mother of a 9 month-old
"Nothing. The full experience I made was in experiencing it my own way with zero pre-expectations." - Mother of a 13 year-old
"Honestly, there is nothing that can prepare you for it, because every single breastfeeding journey is different. I think taking a course on all the possible things that can happen to you when your breastfeeding and ensuring that you're well read about these issues would be ideal. But also knowing that you dont necessarily have to go through any of them. Because then you know what to expect and you dont feel bad for example if youre faced with one of them.
Do what you need to do to get the support that you need, regardless of what other mothers will say. Other mothers are the most judgmental because we’re all trying to justify why we are doing the best that we can. Find people who are going to make you feel good in your journey, and surround yourself with them.
Also, motherhood will change you - even if it’s in the slightest way. Embracing this change will make the journey all the more worthwhile." - Farida El Gueretly
"How it hurts" - Mother of a 2 week-old baby
"That pain will be unbearable but if I hang in there, it will pass and become the most beautiful experience. Do what feels right to you, not to other people." - Heba Nafel
"The most important thing to focus on is that your baby is fed and happy, whether it’s breastmilk or formula or a combo of both. And any amount of breastmilk given is a win." - Mother of a 2 month-old
"It doesn’t have to be this amazing “bonding experience”, not all women enjoy it and that’s ok. You are doing great! There is no perfect mom, but there are so many ways to be an amazing mom to your child! Show yourself kindness and grace and your child will learn to do the same for themselves later on!" - Mother of a 7 & 4 year-old
"Never rush through a feed - life is stressful enough. Soak up the quiet moments with your little while you can and connect. You can't fill from an empty cup. And the best Mama is a Happy Mama - your mental health comes first for the sake of your family and those dependent on you." - Kiki H Z
"Don’t feel guilty so many people breastfeed and the children are doing great" - Mother of a 1 year-old
"Take it easy on yourself, the love and emotions you share with your baby is way important and influential than Milk! To take it easy, nothing to feel guilty about. She will eat in both cases Love and Happy vibes matters the most." - Mother of a 7 year-old
"No shame to ask for the right help and its not for everyone" - Mother of a 7 month-old
"If you’re struggling or feel guilty it means you’ll care and are already a good mom" - Mother of a 1.3 year-old
"That they are doing great! There is no right formula to this or a right way whatever you as mom are doing intuitively is the best for you! It really doesn’t matter what it is whether formula, breastfeeding, a mix. And don’t compare yourself to others each story is different and each baby is different comparing just brings you down, just trust yourself and you will be amazing!" - Mother of a 2.5 year-old
"Don’t stop yourself from feeling anything, because later on that’s how you’ll rise. You’ll learn how strong you actually are. You’ll love and respect yourself a lot more than you think you do. It’s okay to feel guilty but listen to those around you who have similar experiences." - Mother of a 3 year-old
"Love what u have.. i went through abortion then my 2nd timei was going to abort in my 4th month as my nipt was positive chromosome 18 w hmdl tela3 ghalat seeing her now safe healthy And sound is all that matters" - Mother of a 9 month-old
"Enjoy every single moment of it, once you pass the hard part, the joy begins!! And if for any reason, you dont manage, dont be harsh on yourself. You will make an awesome mother anyway! In the eyes of your baby, you are the best mother on earth ❤️" - Mother of a 13 moth-old
"The beginning is always the hardest part but you will adapt & this challenging phase will pass quickly" - Mother of a 2 week-old baby
"Your mental wellbeing is what is important the most. If you are happy and calm so will be your baby!" - Mother of a 2 year-old
"The universe gives you as much as you can handle and that looks different for everyone. Whatever you’re doing is your best. Allow yourself a break sometimes because your energy transfers to your baby, taking care of yourself is also taking care of your baby." - Mother of a 2 month-old
"Its okay to use formula and bottle as support to breastfeeding at the difficult times, there’s no need to stress out so much about exclusive breastfeeding. You are EXACTLY what your baby needs, don’t change, be MORE YOU." - Mother of a 15 month-old
"You’re not alone. The one thing that pushed me the most is when I started talking to other moms I realized how much we’re all going through together so keep talking and sharing! Seek professional help whenever you need it there’s no shame in that whatsoever." - Mother of a 2 month-old
"Do whatever you can do to provide and nurture your baby.. you are strong, you have it and you can do it! Beautiful mamas, You are all incredible and are doing the best that you can. Your mental health is so much more important than the pressure society may put on you. I can't seem to find words to express the respect I have for all mums out there.. It is the hardest job in the world yet is not recognized or spoken about enough. You are all truly amazing and I hope you focus on the beauty in motherhood amongst all the challenges." - Mother of a 3.5 year-old
..........
Do you have a story you’d like to share?
Whether you’re still breastfeeding, stopped long ago, or never started at all — your experience matters.
Share your story here to be part of this growing circle of honesty, empathy, and strength.
We’ve gathered a few of our favorite breastfeeding resources in one place — gentle guidance to help make your journey a little easier, calmer, and full of support. 💛
1- Helpful Videos for Latching & Attachment
• Good Attachment (Link)
• Baby-led Attachment (Link)
• Flipple Hold (Link)
2- Different breastfeeding Positions (Link)
• Laid back / Biological nurturing Position (Link)
• Side lying Position (Link)
3- For those who PUMP: A pumping session should not last more than 20 to 25 min.
• The "hands on pumping" Technique: (Link)
• More 'Hand expression' videos: (Link 1, Link 2)
4- Milk storage and handling (Link)
5- The importance of frequent feeding (Link)
6- The pace feeding method while giving the bottle. (Link)
It will help avoid nipple/bottle confusion and help your baby to be active while feeding
7- Nutrition tips for YOU
• Fermented vegetables are a great source of probiotics and prebiotics
• Try to drink coconut water as it's a very good source of minerals.
• Carrot juice is a good source of electrolytes.
• Eat vegetables, good fat (avocado, olive oil, coconut oil,...).
• Stay away from processed food including sugar. Replace sugar with honey, date syrup, and dried fruit.
• Psyllium husk is a great source of fiber
• Always use Himalayan salt or sea salt
• Soak nuts a day before and eat them
• You can buy sourdough gluten free oats bread.
• Sprouted grains are also a great source of prebiotics.
• Lentils, chickpeas and beans can be sprouted before eating them. It will make them easier to digest.
• Flax seeds, chia seeds, pumpkin seeds as well as sunflower seeds are a great source of fat